had my 2nd appointment just now, medication started to work only on my last 3rd pill. the doctor did not mention anything about me having lack of sleep apart from the dark circles and i think i need more eye mask. my next appointment will be in 2 weeks time, which means more money spend lesser bank balance! tsk tsk tsk!! ouh by the way, the side effects are showing slowly one by one and he said that i will be back to normal in 2 to 3 months time. *cross finger. again i repeat, i am not having any chronic illness.
Anyway, i will have lesser updates now since life is in a mess but in a good mess. i'm just busy living it doing the things i have always wanted to do and if i happen to go missing, pardon me for the time being, i will be back and thats for sure.
Today's lesson
Never trust the good looking ones; chances are, they are a fraud.
Sebenarnya right, I wanted to type this post in full Malay but as you all know my bahasa is so karat I would make a fool out of myself. I will try to speak or even write in Malay more often, who knows if my future mother-in-law can't really understand english, it will be really difficult to communicate with one another. However, that you have to wait long long la eh, saya is not interested in dating or feeling-feeling I love you at the moment kerana hatiku sudah terkunci rapat dan hanya dialah yang boleh membuat ku jatuh cinta lagi.... Chey-chey macam betul je eh!
Anyway, yesterday night was awesome! I finally satisfied my craving for rotii-john cheese at bedok corner, all thanks to the boy for making time just for me. We talked we laughed about almost everything and anything that came to our mind. It made me realised how much we have grown wiser over the years and how we still stick together through it all, even with all the fights and arguments we have/had. I thought i was the worst on the road but this boy lagi worst oi but give him some credits la for not driving like a maniac. When he reached my place, at that very last minute, he thought of asking mother and ayah along for dinner but knowing my parents well enough he said perhaps next time alright and mama wanted to send the brownies tupperware over but he being you know what said its okie but apa salahnya right, its still hari raya. =) Giant-ed afterwards, feeling-feeling sekejap and off he sent me back home.
I said what i have got to say and i've done what i have got to do, no regrets.
Lastly, Happy children day to all the children in the world!! =)
Today i've learnt,
Integrity is what you perceive.
Finally made my way to the doctor last friday because I couldnt take it anymore and yes I am back on medication, again. Don't worry I do not have any chronic illnesses whereby I'm left with a few days/months to live, choy! Even before I opened my mouth he knew that I'm lacked of sleep and he assumed that I am stress which i am not, really. Yes, i have trouble sleeping but that doesnt mean that I'm stress. My body clock is haywire and I have to readjust it back to the right track ever since you know what but now with the help of the sleeping balm, I'm able to sleep peacefully without any disturbances in the middle of the night. Thank God and my next appointment will be in 2 weeks time.
I was injected and when he asked if I wanted injections so it will go away faster, i was already taken aback since the last injection I had was years ago, the one for the wisdom tooth is not counted since its different from the normal injections. Dentist and doctors are two different profession you see. The injections was nothing to be scared of nor was it painful and the doctor is really amazing. A point to take note is that I have to get use to telling new doctors that I am allergic to painkillers, always slipping off my mind. Who in the right mind will think so much when they are in pain right. Its like, just shut up and give me the bloody painkillers before I kill you. All you want is for the pain to go away and get over and done with it and when you start to swell, thats the moment where you remember that you're allergic to painkillers, how wonderful.
Anyway if for the next two weeks, I am not myself, depressed, having dry peeling lips and skin, look like shit please do not worry for me its just the side effects of the medication and after two weeks, it'll go away. I shall try to sleep early tonight since tomorrow will be a long day.. =D
I really do not know what i'm feeling right now, why am i feeling this strong overwhelm feeling of being in love. As much as I would love to say i'm in love, i'm really am not nor do i know who im in love with. Its really funny, how i'm amazed that i'm able to amaze myself with little things and be happy for the whole entire week or sometimes be a complete ass and ruin the whole week. Nowadays, i'm a whole lot happier and nicer to people around me, it helps. Like I said, the best thing to do is not to care and if you do not care you wont hope and if you dont hope, there wont be disappointments and when there is no disappointments you wont have heartaches .....
Currently, am living life as it is. Maybe because the people whom I finally realised I need most are around me and how much I love every one of them, they keep me humble.. I wouldnt trade what i have now with what I had a few months back. Nothing compares to this when you realised what you need is not what you want and what you found might not always be the one you're looking for, you will tend to take life as it is. I think i have grown wiser in every aspect due to the experiences, lessons and pain, taught me what life is all about. Don't get me wrong, not that i'm saying i know what's life is all about now, am still learning so bare with me and forgive my mistakes. I have no regrets/hatred because the past is said and done and my future is yet to be known. I wish everyone out there all the best in life and in whatever you do, just dont hurt the people whom means the whole world to you and vice versa.
Today i've learnt,
When you can't look in one's eye or even face them for the mistakes you did, you're ashamed of the things or words you said to that person. It shows that you have a very low ethical standard or in another words, NO BALLS!
4 hearts out of 5
I have no idea why the reviews were bad but I'm glad that i watched it and enjoyed 4/5 of the stories told, worth every penny. Personally, I think its better than the previous one which out of the 5 stories, i liked 1, the air hostess. I really do not want to be a spoiler for the movie thus you have to watch it yourself to know if its good or not, a whole lot of unexpected twist, i like!
2 hearts out of 5
Not worth it, rather you watch something else than this draggy movie, its too long, too many repeated scenes. It was so draggy till the extend where I could not wait to get out of the cinema wasn't convincing enough nor was it gore at all. Expected more of killings and sufferings, too bland. Not up to my expectation nor liking.
5 hearts out of 5.
I caught this recently and I loved it! Funny sweet and it taught me a lesson at the end of it and also because there's Awal in it! =)
